Demon cat's mansion

2010-12-26T23:51:00.002+08:00

wow.. it's been 2 months and.. erm .. 22 days sicne the last post.

nothing much happened.

just none stop job hunting..

oh ya^^

got to know a guy on face book.

his name is Ozaki kayoru.

as you can tell from his name, he is a japanese.

he is 17 years old, have 4 piercing on each ear.

like gazette and visual kei stuff^^

have a dog call hataru.

currently living in Kuala lumpor because of his father's job.

his mum have a boutique there as well.

i really find him quite interesting and cute too.

held a belated christmas party in my house today.

just me and 4 other friends.

for this i bought a christmas tree,

but thank goodness it's only $6.90

hand made a bit of decos as well.

such as the black snow flakes.

gave my friend eacha santa claus hat.

i suppose that's all.

bye~!

there is quite some food,

can't really finish.

2010-10-05T17:46:00.002+08:00

ALI PROJECT ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARIKA IS SOOOOOOOO PRETTY! ( even though she s 47 years old...)

An update on my good list!

Gods
-Ruki (GazettE)
-kamijo( Versailles Philharmonic Quintet)
-uruha( GazettE)
-Shou( Alicenine)
-Saga( Alicenine)

Goddess
-Arika Takarano ( ALI PROJECT)

my first and last goddess...
miao...

2010-10-03T15:11:00.004+08:00

Mood:... cloudy.
weather: just like my mood..

You know.. sometimes i can't help thinking.
that maybe all that I've done is just a waste of time and effort.
Because, no matter what...
i get nothing in return..
or perhapes i'm just being used as i decor.. ATM..Ect..

I don't really see my goals anymore..
everything's in a blur..
no.. not blue. DARK is the word...
i am using my very last shreds of energy to keep my mask on..
so that i will still look beautiful until the end..
while under that beautifully painted mask,
I'm just a doll that had been broken beyond repair..

My best surrender , would be my room...
always filled with gloom,
having the sunlight blocked out by the curtains that i dread to open, dread of reveling my true form...
broken beyond repair..

you might tell me to brighten up. get on my feet and walk on...
to do something about it...
but... my question is...
what's the point?

i don't know when i will even post another thing again..
but i truly hope..
it's not something similar as this..
good bye..

have the world around my have stopped moving?
or have the world left me behind when i am asleep?..

2010-07-18T11:36:00.006+08:00

HOWDY!!!!!!!!!

ok that's weird...sorry...

hiaz.. i seriously dunno what to blog about...
nothing much interesting had happened..
even if there is.... I've forgotten them all.

er.. prelims are over...
results stink worst than the sewer .
I will work hard on it. so dun worry.

must thank azril for the notes that i've borrowed.
anyway those not was kinda useless..
because i've already know them...

on friday. after school and FNN PART B
we went to west mall to have lunch,
something super funny happened.
uncle ng was fascinated by the shop call "BJ Korea" you know what BJ means right.

and honestly can't stop joking about it.
the topic eventually went to eileen's direction...
which i dun even now how anymore cos
i was laughing my butt off after uncle ng said
scaly eileen go pull her ah kong's thingy unknowingly when she's sleeping!
i choked on my milo, but was alright..
better then baba!
she literary " sprayed out" the porridge she was about to eat!
and almost choked to her death!
we continued laughing for like...
i dunno how long la!

ah! went out with uncle ng yesterday.
quarreled abit, but was resolved quick enough.
we went to orchard plaze and asked about the amount of money we need to make the costumes that we were planning to wear to prom.
so i had to dig out my courage to ask the auntie as uncle ng is too much of a pussy to ask.

the auntie is superrrrrrrrrr pro.. she know how to make that complex costumes that we requested..
but when she sort out the cheapest price for us to know..
i wasn't really surprise but the amount almost made me cried,
when i know my own calculation was right..
BUT! I'm still determined to make it nevertheless
i will have to save up for the next one month..( not eating for recess... no buying cute stuff.. no lavish lunches)
and save up more to help uncle ng and maybe baba as well..
uncle ng is just too poor that it is pathetic.
but that's god^^ might help me lose a few Kgs of fats before prom^^

ok! about the bands!

recently i've came about to know a few bands that i actually liked. below is the list of them

-Cu[be]
-D=out
-diement
-sadie
-screw
-SID

they are pretty cool
d=out if very unique, they sing songs that sounded like enka. but still very nice

erm... nothing much to say anymore.. so..
THATS ALL! BUAI!

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2010-05-10T20:32:00.005+08:00

wow never been updating for like a dunno how long!
so much had happened..
so much had passed..
feels kinda empty huh?..

ok school stuff..
was chosen as the class' reprisentative to do the thought of the day bull shit..
will be talking about a topic that everyone have heard more then 1001 times.
...global warming.. *yawn*...
kicked mid year exam in the ass so lets just forget about it...
oh ya!
i did a solo project for the general knowledge quest thingy. based on versailles!^^
it looks wonderful.. ( at least i think so.. ^^)
but it keep falling off..
ah! i forgot to go check on t today.. O.O .... shit..
oh whatever.

ok the fun stuff!
went out with baba and nets gay.
and got razzy over gazette (a visaul kei band)
uruha and ruki can seriously make ppl have nose bleeding..
here are some pictures of them

did i miss someone?

oh yes and i have created my personal god list ^^

+uruha from gazette!

+Kamijo from versailles!

+Ruki from gazette!

+Saga from alice nine!

+Shou from alice nine!

i favorites are the first three, no ranking in those three^^

2010-05-10T20:14:00.007+08:00

here's versailles! in their latest album Jubilee!

oh here's some pictures of alice nine ^^

2010-03-31T20:48:00.002+08:00

This is Versailles one of my 2 favorite visual kei band.
they totally rock! they are my personal god from the religion keisium =P
they are a mixture of Victorian elegance and Gothic
Kamijo( in the middle) as the vocal. his voice and everything is just... suteki!!
ah... so handsome^^ *mesmerized*

hizaki(1st from the right) is the lead guitarist of the band. also known as the metal princess.his guitar skills are wonderful.. furthermore he is very pretty in his female disguise^^. he superb!i wish i can play like him in the future^^

teru (1st from the left), the guitarist, hizaki ever said that his biggest rival is teru, this shows how strong he is as well^^. he is really cute! the way he behaves is just... omg..kawaii!!

yuki (2nd from right), the drummer of the band, a real joker but super cool.when his on his drums.... you can really start getting the dazzling fever.his drumming skills i would say is the best I've seen~!.

Lastly the beautiful and elegant jasmine you(2nd from right). the bassist of the band.his just so special... so unique^^... so beautiful.. his bass is proven to be the best in the world.(google it!) unfortunately..we'll never get to hear anymore from him... he passed away on the 9th of August 2009 due to an illness... he shall forever be in our hearts. even if his place in Versailles is replace by some one else. that some one else will never replace his identity in my heart... i lover you jasmine you.. rest in peace..T.T

this is Alice nine. my other favorite band ^^.
they rock too!( they are my god too^^ especially shou and saga!)
they are now currently walking on a style of street fashion.

shou(the one touching the peacock) is the vocalist. he is obviously gorgeous.
he is really really cool.sings very very well. his hair is like MY GOD!ok.(

saga ( the one standing right beside the peacock) is the bassist. he is sooooooo damn cool!
his bass is great. he looks godly.

Nao( the one on the left hand corner) is the drummer and leader of the band.

hirot ( the one sitting on the floor in front of saga and nao) is the guitarist.

tora ( the other one sitting on the floor) is the other guitarist..

too tired to write any description of them now...
i'll continue tomorrow...
i'll go to sleep now..
miao...
love everyone..
muacks...

2010-02-16T21:36:00.002+08:00

hiaz... chinese new year is just as boring as any other day..
nothing much to talk about.
but i feel pretty emo this few days...
i just notice, no one really understand me...
nor trust me anymore..
i feel so alone ..
i bet everyone things me as a lier...
even him..
T.T

if only i did jump off that place then...
5 years ago...
i wound't been suffering now...

i dunno whether i'm thinking too much or what so ever..
but i just can;t help feeling lonely...
i got no one i can tell my secrets too..
i can;t tell him
cos he thinks i'm a fool...
he'll scold me for things i did.
at time when i did something wrong...
i knew it...
but instead of properly talked to...
i;m always treated like a dog...

if i can choose what i wanna be in my next life.
or IF there IS a next life...
i think i'll choose to be a gold fish...
there is nothing much to worry about...
or more like i;m not capable to..

i will not be forced to do things i dun like..
because i dunno what i like or dislike in the first place...

all day i just have to open and close my mouth for oxygen..
and wait for food...
and since my life is really short..
i'll die and pass that life way faster
than my human life spend is.

i really dunno what's the point of my existence is anymore...
i use to have aims and dreams...
but they seems so insignificant to the world now..
i am only a nuisances..
to my family...
my lover..
and my friends..
...

2009-12-15T15:54:00.004+08:00

here's the romaji version of serenade

Nemurenai yoru ga tsuzuku
Anata ni aitai
Toki datte yume utsutsu
Uta kata no negai

Futaga koto mo nakute wo
Tori futari aruite kita kono michi
Ne yakusoku shita yo ne?

Donna ni ooki na kare mo
Futari de koete yuko wo
Oboshite mama inai ni
Ma sugu anata ni aitai

Koza shita mama no kokoro
Subete ga komakute
Doko made yukeba ii
Mou arukenai yo

kara yume wo ite mata
kie yuku sanzo wo
So nagare boshii no you ni

Mabushii ikari wa yanaka
Yozora no maboru namida
Kokoro no kaku minaete
Koza shita tobi darou hiraite

Itsuka anata ni aeru nara kitai
Donna ni owoki nakabe mo
Futari de kowete kita ne
Arigatou mou nemu utete
Hitori de aru keru kara

Anata to fute ita yume wo
Kokoro no kari kayete
Kabarasu kono yozora ni
Itsuka asano tsubete kono

atabero ni kakusu
Kokoro wa kisu eto ikute
Yoza shita yori kete
todoke otoyo yami wo terashite

not 100% correct. written while listening to the song.

here's the kanji version

眠れない夜が津ずく
アナタに会いたい
時だって夢現
歌かたの願い

二がこともなくてを
とり二人歩いてきたこの道
ね、約束したよれ

どんなに多きなかれも
二人で超えてゆこを
思してままいないに
ますぐアナタに会いたい

古座したままの心
全てが鼓膜手
どこまで行けばいい
もう歩けないよ

から夢を居てまた
きえ行くさんぞを
そうなられぼしいのように

眩しい怒りはやなか
夜空の間ぼる涙
心のかくみなえて
こざした飛びｄろう開いて

いつかアナタに合えるなら期待
どんなにおをき中部も
二人でこうぇて来たね
有難うもう合歓打てて
一人であるけるから

アナタとふていた夢を
心のかりかいぇて
課バラスこの夜空に
いつかあさのつべてこの

あたべろに隠す
心はきずえと好くて
よざしたよりけえ
とどけおとよ闇を照らして

2009-12-15T15:26:00.002+08:00

this is versailles's new song.. the very first pv after the death of our lovely jasmine you.. a sad and depressing song written to bid farewell to their bassist.
this song will be in their up coming album "jubilee". i've already pre-ordered it, the limited edition one. hopefully it will be here by the 23rd of January.
here's the english translation of this song. it's not 100% correct but should be roughly like this.

The night i cannot sleep goes on..
I want to see you
The interrupted time is depressing
My song is long..

There were no suspicions, faraway
On the road we walked
Hey.. we had promised , right?

No matter how high the wall , we crossed over it.
Why are you not here now?
I want to see you.

Like this to my heart,
Everything is problematic
So how far should i go?
I can't walk anymore..

Because i met you in a dream, that dream will
Cruelly disappear again..
Yes , just like a falling star..

That briliant light has stopped
and in the east , the night sky cries..
my heart begin to seeth
and the doors opens.

if i can meet you again someday.
will i be able to see?

no matter how high the wall, we crossed it and came here.
thank you. you can sleep now for i can walk on my own.

the dream in which i saw you return to my heart
surely someday , the night sky will lead to dawn
my shaking heart will return to my warm chest

It's okay like this..
i can walk and the far reaching sounds pierce the darkness.

2009-11-04T19:31:00.003+08:00

こんにちは！に掲載されてしばらく以来、私は最後に何か投稿!^^
どのように日本語を日本語で使用するため、そのビットの私にとっては奇妙な知っていると言って..
それのように私！^^
何か面白いものを開始することができます

どのようにヴェルサイユの新しいアルバムをすぐに出ていると言って！

オーマイゴッド！私は完全には大好き^^
私は間違いなくそれを購入する！
どのようにその11月、私の20の驚異に出てくる場合は、シンガポールで利用できると言っている..

大丈夫次のトピック..

なる..ああ!!That's right!...
昼食から午後表現毘沙門天に行きました!^^
Barkat 学校からは本日欠席していました
ので、彼女は私たちと来ない

私とジョナサンの文句を言わない学校には明日行くことのいずれか..
これbarkatとしてうまくいっていないに参加する予定です^ ^

私は新しい職場で明日からの作業になります
、我々は、自然公園に、明日の午前中だが一緒に歩く...
すべてすぐにバイバイをする..^^

2009-10-16T14:38:00.004+08:00

HIHI!!! it been awhile sice i last post anything..
been busy with exams and all that.
nothing much actually happened

one of the more interesting event is the outing i went with my frens
eileen
wan kiang
piggo lin
barkat
and honey (jonathan ng)

we wen tto watch a movie call "Haeundae:The Deadly Tsunami

i wore my black shorts that i have never wore before.
it was too short!
eileen said i was hot^^
but oh well nvm..
regular readers should have seem the change in my blog skin.
i got sick of the old old..
it look like the colours fade off..
ok thats all miao!

2009-10-14T12:08:00.004+08:00

Ah hello hello!
This is Jonathan Ng helping Shirley improve her skin.
I mean Blog Skin

2009-09-05T15:39:00.000+08:00

here's another PV of The Versailles..
Can't find the pv to my favorite song 'princess'
Vesailles Rocks!

2009-09-05T15:04:00.003+08:00

i love the Versailles!!!!! they rock!!!
Kamijo is super cool
hizaki is so pretty!( even though he is a male
teru's tummy is so flat! so cool
yuki is just stunning!!! ah
Jasmine you(dead) is just so beautiful..
he'll be forever in the fans' hearts

i wanna create my own band that is just like them
and i've already gathered my members

Band Name: TsukiShiroi
Roles
Vocal-
drummer-Lee Zi Heng
Bass guitarist - Jonathan Ng
guitarist- Shirley Au(me)
guitarist- Barkat Nisha
keyboard player- Eileen Tey

The King - * unknown*
The knight -Barkat(as male)
The queen - Jonathan Ng(as female)
The princess - Shirley Au
The prince - Lee Zi Heng( male la)
The witch - eileen tey ( as.... dunno...)

i'm saving up for my electric guitar le
we'll strive and be better than the Versailles
wow!

2009-08-28T17:12:00.000+08:00

kyo no tenki:a bit gloomy..
kyo no kishouku:not very happy.. not sad either^^.

i've just been tooooo busy to update my blog regularly..
nothing intereting except of eileen and zi heng's birthdays recently...
on Tuesday 1st of September,
the bunch of us is going to go out and celebrate zi heng's belated birthday.
hope he dun mind ^^
my mum's birthday is also around the corner..(actually on 14 September)

i fell down on thursday...
now there's a big patch of cuts on my knee..
super painful when water touches it..
but it's getting better..
thanks to the anti septic cream my sis gave me..

ah yeah... N level exams are sooo close...
i'm really scared and stressed about it..
i dun care about the results...
i just dun wanna retain or go to ite..
i still haven't have enough fun with my friends and dear..
they are all very very important to me..

ok thats all for now..
chaos.
sayonara!

2009-07-31T16:20:00.001+08:00

here is a video of barkat aka bra.

here's another one^^
theres more.^^ muhahahaha!
next up it;s about eileen^^

2009-07-11T08:47:00.002+08:00

こんにちはみんなしばらくしました。
konnichiwa minna san, o-sashiburi desu.
hello everyone it;s been awhile

今日の天気は: 雨の多い
today's wheather is rainy...
今日の気分 :寂しい
todays mood: lonely..

i was planning to go out with dar today....
but my mama dun allow me to....
she said it;s a waste of money..
she even say its a waste of money giving birth to me....
T.T

i dunno if i can use computer later either...
my brother;s at home so most likley my comp will be hi-jacked later
i cried like mad in the morning...
but good news is my brther just said he might be going out later so..
i might just get to use comp...

but all the same i am just as sad..
i was looking forward to today's date. since dar first suggested it...
now it;s all gone...
i really wonder why i am born...
T.T

but i guess there is nothing i can do anymore...
all i can do is endure now...

dar sorry.. i love you T.T

2009-06-11T18:27:00.002+08:00

kyo no tenki: warm like hell!!!!!!
kyo no kishoku: somewhat lonely..

it been awhile since i last post anything huh...
so ok i'll talk about what hapen today ( as ususal)

lasy night i had alot of nightmares...
all about dardar bullying me ( which will never ever happen^^ dar's very good to me^^)
so wheni wake up in the morning,
i feel as tough i've never sleep a wink

but still jave to go to school....
yaya, i know it; holiday but i still have my '60hour clock in' to clear...
took the bus as usual...
that was the first time ayumi's song never keep me awake...
but luckily i never fell asleep.
bra was also falling asleep..

went to the 2nd floor study corner beside the art room.
had some lovey dovey time with dar^^
recently he tickles me alot...
so it's like ... omg stop it... that tickles..^^

we than go to the office at 8am to clock in .
and we were going to get the class key,
i found out that one of the cleaners have took it before us!
so we cannot go in to our class for the whole day
cos we can;t find both the key and the uncle..

so we go to the library
play viwawa's sushido till 9.30am
than go for breakfast...

than after that go back to the library to enjoy aircon again.
than 11am ... chemistry lesson till 12.30pm
i just love chem!!!

than stay in the library until 1pm

go clock ou than go home..

then when i reach home...
i found something... or somethings bazzar in my room...
a whole bunch of bats near the dressing table...
omg i think there is almost 20 of them?
i forgot to close the window before going to school this morning
so i guess that's how they came in...
they just dun wanna get out...
i tried 'paper swipping '
and 'water spraying' but both doesn;t work...
they only start going out when the sky darkens...

that is when i am writing this post.
ok thats all chaos!
sayonara!

muacks! dar i love you! ^^

2009-05-19T09:05:00.000+08:00

here's my favorite video! enjoy ppl!

2009-05-19T09:00:00.000+08:00

miao... nothing much happened yet later than up date...

2009-05-18T18:42:00.002+08:00

kyo no tenki: rainy!!! i like it!
kyo no kishoku:wonderful day for me..

today, in the morning...
i went to school alone..
going to school without barkat was so boring...
but somehow peaceful =P
smsed dar through out the journey
reached school kinda early today.
talk and joke with my normal ' gang'

nothing much really happened..
if some HAD happened i have already forgotten it all.

during lunch break...
Mr fazlin treated the whole class pizza..
because we have done well in the cheer leading competition.
dar was on fire, so sort
cos he hates the ' cheap sake' ppl

i am just as glutton as usual.. can't wait to touch the food...

than later at 3pm
we went to the auditorium..
for the singing competition that piggo lin and melissa have entered
melissa sang well but seem to have been pulled down by piggo lin.
so they didn't win.. to bad ne..T.T i wish they could win yo( melissa only, piggo lin shoo!)

me and dar then went on home..
took the bus.. did the usual.
and thats all!

chaos!
sayonara!
bye bye!
Muackz!!!
love ya dar!^^

2009-05-14T18:04:00.002+08:00

kyo no kishoku:not very happy... have stomach ache
kyo no tenki:rainy in the morning

skipped a few days of posting again...
nothing much to write really...
i have a boring life
sumimasen...

today again just go to school like normal.
the moment i wake up i had a stomach ache...
ouch...
when assembly ended i had to run to the toilet...
T.T

got a little tiff with dar ..
but of cos got resolved very quickly.

bra came with us on the way home so cannot do our 'usual'
dar was carrying my beg for the whole journey.
look like he is pregnent

oh ya.. i got back my results for some of my subject... so far failed maths combine science and humanities ... hiaz..

but even tol i fail my maths..
i am the highest scorer in my class( top failer..) lol
dunno wheather to feel sad or happy..

than just before wrting this dar gave me links to a bunch f funny videos,,
made me laugh like mad
my mum said i am siao

thats all basically.

chaos!
sayonara!
adios!
bye bye!

2009-05-11T10:49:00.002+08:00

今日の天気:雨
今日の気分:寂しい

wanna ask me why i am writing in japanese?
it'sjust to act cool.. so chill..

ok skipped alot of days of posting..
kinda busy i guess i should say....

saturday sunday and today is sooooo boring..
no need to go to school... but i rather go to school la!
didn;t get to see dar for so many days is ..T.T

nothing to write about seriously..
nothing interesting happen...

oh ya!yesterday was mother's day
i actualy wanted ti call for the golden pillow.
but they say they can only deliver the meal after 9.30pm!
nuts right?!
so my sis , my bro and me of cos...
brought my mama to eat botak jones.
very nice.. the beef in the burger is huge!! it's thicker than my laptop!
one can fill me le... whats more there's 3 in it!

just got a message from barkat (bra)
she's paying for my lan fee today!!!
yay!!!!!!!!

ok thats all nothing else to write about le...
maybe i'll start with the topic discussion...

次回を参照してください
さようなら!

2009-05-01T12:29:00.004+08:00

kyo no kishoku: today... nothing much ... kinda lonely...
kyo to tenki:damn warm...

wow i've skipped so many days of posting huh...
ok anyway i was having fever since dunno when still having it..
all giddy and not feeling well...

Exams started.... done with the battle with english and mt so far...
i dun think i am going to do anygood in this time's exam... when you sick very hard to use your brain...

than dunno what happen to dar... keep being so edgy...
keep scolding me... T.T *sobsob* so cold to me ne...
what did i do miao....
well i guess he is in a bad mood...

speaking of being cold...
on thursdy i almost feel like crying...
seriously...
in the morning i went over to say good morning to SOMEBODY...
and instead of the normal warm and wonderful morning greetings..
i get something totally cold...

i went over and said ' GOOD MORNING!!'
then just because i never see one message... i got scolded...
some more in monotone...
ok nvm...
then when HE talk to other ppl....
very nice lor all gentle and cheerful lor...
then me leh? got left there speakng to myself...
so i no choice.. walked away...
just what am i to him...
*sob sob*

i dun wanna say anymore liao..
bye bye...

2009-04-24T20:00:00.003+08:00

kyo no kishoku:happy ( the usual me)
kyo no tenki: hot like hell!

yo! wow skipped so many days of posting...

oh well nvm lets talk about some interesting stuff...

bra come up with this rolse playing thingy
first is the lord of the rings:
bra -sauron
me!- arwen
dar dar -aragorn
vicknays - meriadoc"merry" brandybuck
mallory - peregrin " pippin" took
hema - boromir
wankiang - legolas
nicholas - gimli
Eileen - saruman the white
mr chua - Elrond
melissa - galadriel
mr fazln - bilbo baggins
fat hi ah - eoywn
adrian - faramir
vick - gollum / smeagol
buba - lurtz

ok than for lingerie... diao...:
barkat - bra( 100% ????)
me - bikini ( 100% velvet ) ...wah so heavy...
dar dar - brief ( 100% cardboard )
vicknays - underwear (100% leather)
ziheng - boxer ( 100% dunno what)
hema - panty (100%tissue paper)
buna - g-string (100% rafia )

ok than twilight :
me - esme ... i wannbe alice!!!
dardar - carlisle (of cos la )
sofia - bella ..... ah hahahahahaha!!!!!
bra's brother - edward ... eeee
buba - roselie
hema - victorian
emmet - vicknays
bra - james
i forget who alice and jasper is but i was previously alice dar was jasper of cos...

oh! and dar went to tell ms yeo to change his history class to mine!!!yay!!!
after mid year our english class will also be combined
so we'll only have to seperate from him for maths! yay!!!!!

we changed ez-link card.
the photo on mine is the one i took for my primary school bus pass...
i was only primary 2 ... so the photo is the really cute me.
haiz...

Dar look thin in his primary school picture... i wonder what happen...=P just kidding

bra looks cute also.. that innocent look just doesn't fit her character.... =P miao!
my prepaid card got out of money...didn't get to sms dar T.T
but finaly top it up today

this part is for li hui.... if she ever sees this...
i am very sorry for writing bad things about you in my blog...
recerntly i changed my opinion about you... i admit i use to dislike you.
but now i think you are a splendid person.

ok this part is for all my friends...
i know ever since i go on a stead. i sort of neglated all of you..
i am very sorry.. T.T
hope you all will understand my feelings.. you are all important friends to me..
i'll do anything to make it up to you guys..>.<

This is for dardar^^:
dar i know that eversince i lied once to you.. you sort of find it hard to trust me.
but i swear i'll never lie to you ever again...
it was scary... you was so angry T.T ... sorry!!! >.<
and you keep think i wanna leave you...
i swear with my life and my everything that i will never do that!
i love you!

ok thats all...

sayonara! mata ne ;)

2009-04-19T11:42:00.000+08:00

kyo no kishoku:very bored and lonely
kyo no tenki: warm... i guess summer is starting huh...

wow i skipped 5 days of posting...hm...
was realy tired can't help it...

hiaz my phone got confiscated on monday so i am currently using my mum's phone and her number as well..
yesterday there was a english remidial even tol its saturday..
but at least get t see dar ^^
his's not in the class but he just came to find me ^^

i actualy was suppose to meet dar at the library but instead i followed bra ang piggo lin to jp
dar got a little pissed i guess..

but after bra and the others left he turn back to normal..

thats all for yesterday..

than today nothing as usual.. sunday always suck..

me and my sis discuss about how me, my brother and my sis doesn't look very much like singaporean even tol our parents are typical 'singapore look'
so i asked my mum( just for fun)
'ma.. are we really you kids?'

ok thats all

chaos!

2009-04-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

kyo no kishoku: sadin the morning... but happy in the days end
kyo no tenki:abit dark huh?

today morning is suckish...
i woke up early expecting dardar to come to my bus stop to fetch me dun he didn't.. i was abit dissapointed... but i dun want him t strain himself too much so it's fine....

than i got to school of cos before him..
while sms him... mdm bitch came over... confiscated my phone...
she said she want to see me after assembly so i went...

before i can even say sorry she told me to shut up...
than laer she say ' i would have given you , your phnoe back if you have said sorry...'
than i was like 'you have never gave me the chance!'
so that how my phnoe got 'off my hands' for 10 weeks!

i almost cried for that... thinking that i can;t sms dar dar anymore...
wah!!!!!T.T

ok than history lesson calm me down...

english... thats when the fun starts!
my teacher anbaba never come today so mr fazlin took the whole class tot he library to do cme project...got to see dardar earlier than supposed^^(yay!)
dardar go searched for some idian picture. than paused there for awhile while listening.... than i go click on this super funny picture... that made dardar me and piggo to laugh for a whle 2omins
here's the pic...

than alot of other lesson... blah blah blah...

ok thats all.. chaos...

2009-04-12T17:02:00.000+08:00

ah i miss a day's posting again...oh well nvm...

kyo no kishoku:super lonely and very bored...
kyo no tenki: it rained?

it's sunday... as usual i stay at home for the entire day...

woke up suddenly with the urge to watch twilight so i just watch it.
when i am waiting for it to start i send my morning sms to dardar as usual also saying good morning...

than half way trought the movie i got tired of it so i wnet to do some maths practice... i forgot about breakfast so i just eat a few slices of bread...(not feeling particularly hungry anyway.)

than more maths...my sis came to help me abit until she have to go out.
i than go use the com talk to dardar on msn

stupid sis's bf came over got me totally pissed off so i moved my taptop to my room.
thats where i post the post...eating laksa at the same time too... mum screaming for me to stop eatingin my room ... i acted like i never hear anything...

so basically i spend my whole dat missing dar and bring all lonely...

ok thats all
bye bye

i love you anata!^^
ok so that's all

2009-04-11T11:16:00.001+08:00

yesterday....
kinou no kishoku: hm.... kinda lonely usual...
kinou no tenki: i dun really know. i am in my dark roo since i wake up..

my saturdays and sunday are mostly speded issing dardar and nothing else unless i go out with frens.
so i;l not wirte anything for today...there nothing to write...

let talk about today!

mood: super happy!

today's weather was horrible! in the morning and afternoon .it's as warm as the oven!
than around 5 pm it rained like mad!

i went to sentosa with dar dar, pig and vicknays. our intension was to go there to picnic. but the sun light is like so damn bright it just make me dun feel like moving...

the others seem to think so also... so we stay in somewhere shady and eat our things.. it sooo damn warm that it felt like a torture!.
but with dar dar around i dun care! i am still enjoying myself!

after eating . we went to many other place. but it's not very fun since everything's so expensive..
we than went to the merlion. to have 'fun' and enjoy aircon
we got this coin thingy.. kinda nice huh? but dunno what it's for.
it was kinda nice in the beginning. the little trail was interesting.there was a part that make everything white in colour to glow in the dark! dar's t-shirt become the brightest thing in there haha!the logo on this beg is totally stunning. so cool lor! than we went in to this super mini cinema to watch something. it;s about how Singapore's name comes about and how we get the merlion symbol. kinda lame.

than we was directed to this statue lion thingy to put in the coin earlier ( oo so this is what its for)
we got this ticket. that can let us exchange for something in the souvenir
we than climbed to the mouth and head of the merlion to take photo..
we got this ticket to take ther photos taken at the mouth. we tot it;s free but unfornately it's not free at all! it's expensive!
and i notice something. dar dar keep trying to find chance to kiss me.. aiyo so bold leh him >.<>.<) he still never speak a single word... than i got worried and scared. so i gave and bend down to lok into his eyes... than i nothice his crying! T.T i am sorry dar! i didn't mean to make you cry! i just wanna let you know that i won't do such a thing! i was immediately heart broken
i was so guilty i feel like killing myself again
but i know i cannot cry in front of him yet. i have to stop him crying first.
i did what ever i can. but he is still crying... got so desperate.. i didn;t know what to do anymore... so i lost control of my tears...

of cos as usual i dun cry for every long.. just afew drops of it and i pulled myself back..
i got no choice but to say goodbye to him..
but stleast he finaly stopped cry...

i got home and got his sms
i nearly cried when he told me not to leave him( which i will never even if i am going to die and lost everything)

we of cos resolved everything...
i vowed my everything to be with him forever..
so there's nothing can break us now!

i love you dardar!

ok thats all chaos...

2009-04-09T16:05:00.000+08:00

kyo no kishoku: abit moody.. but still quite happy

in the morning nothing much really happen in school... it;s the usual lessons..
the good thing is the 4 hours remedial that we are suppose to have today is canceled because my teacher is suddenly sick... hope's she's fine..

than after school.. dardar have this commit meeting so i waited for him in the library.. i wanted to go into the class room but it seem inappropriate since i might disturb them...
i was reading some mystery story book when dardar appear from behind e and tickled my ears..lol he just love doing that.. that's my weak spot -_- hiaz...

than we went to eat luch with vicknays, piggo, zi heng, eileen and fathiah...
i went to order fish rice.. i ask for MORE sauce and less vege. but instead i get lesser sauce and more vege. and the vege serving is like omg de big la!
than we joked around like siao..

than after that me, dardar and vicknays walked to the bus stop to take the bus (duh! than what do we do in bus stops?)

i found i stick on the floor and was fooling around with harry potter spells. than i got over board i guess i used the stick to hit a pillar of the bus stop.THAN something from it fly to dardar's eye! >.<>
that's what got dardar really angry and he glared at me!T.T with a glare that is 1000times fiercer than the ones 2 days agoT.T
it's as tol he hate me already.T.T

i got really down and guilty...i am such stupid gf...
this got me thinking whether i am harming him in his life and studies or not...
even tol he seems happier and is better tampered... but is the rest the right thing?

i seem to be teaching him the wrong things.. and constantly hurting his feelings ( sometimes really not knowingly..T.T)
i dunno what to do anymore...

so i've decided to follow edward cullen's path...
to forget it and be selfish...
i know there is nothing i can do to tear myself away from him..
i know that i mgiht be hurting him..
but i can't be help... he is just too important..his is my everything...once i lost him... it's my ends.

i am so gonna put all that tot behind. and as i say be selfish... that's the best i can do to control my brain from going nuts now..

so thats all for today... chaos..
i am sorry dar.. i love you too much..and for hurting you...

2009-04-08T20:06:00.000+08:00

kyo no kishoku: sleepy...very...
kyo no tenki: er the sky is kinda dark? did it rain?

howdy ppl..
sorry about the gloomy tone.. i am just sleepy...

ah! yesterday i never get to post anything.my WONDERFUL sister bring her bf home. and thus find stupid reasons to shoo me from the room and comp.. i seriously wonder what they do in the locked room...ok better not to know..

yesterday was i terrifying day.. but have it's sweety notes as well....
in the morning i smsed dar in the morning as usual..
i was touched when he say i am the reason he comes to school everyday
it's like that for me too!

later in school...it's terrifying...
dar looked angry through out the whole day. keep glaring at me. making me tot that i did something wrong..i asked dar about it.. he said it's nothing. so i let it go..

later during assembly. i was as usual disturbed by teachers.
when we are walking to class vicknays told me about what he and dar did.
they discuss which character from harry potter suits who and which teacher.. this is the result...

Miss Janet Tay-Lord Voldemort
Mr Rafeek-Lucius Malfoy
Taufik-Draco Malfoy
Barkat-Harry Potter
Vicknays-Ronald Weasley
JoLin-Hermione Granger
me!-Crookshanks
dardar,-Sirius Black
Hisyam-Dobby
Mrs Abdullah-Narcissa Malfoy

yay! i am the cat!
i wonder whose nymphadora tonk ( means sex maniac! haha!)

next. fnn lesson... nothing much. me and dardar finished our my coursework. than went down to mdm aisha's kitchen. for her to 'analysis' our work. Mdm aisha said i am cleverer than dardar!yay!than dardar started glaring me again... scary...
than second lesson.. dardar's still glaring at me! i was like " WHAT DID I DO?! T.T"
at this point i am already crying inside.. i dunno what to do!

than recess... the black ass ( mr vilau). come and disturb ppl again...
irritated dardar...
than english.. nothing much .. the rat hold us back in class to tell us about some things.
and omg li hui become vice-chair! die! i don't really like her... so haolian..and she talks nonsense some times..

than maths.. nothing much...just as confused as ever..
thinking to dar while having nothing to do..

i went back to class after maths..
jump around have fun with some lamers too much
that got dar angry...T.T
sorry dardar...

he that g to the compuer lab without me.. leaving me in class..T.T
oh well can't be hel.. i am the one who made him angry..i think i should just do the Seppuku and end myself...i totally suck as a gf T.T..
but later he came back to bring me along.

had lunch with Dar, Bra, Liana, Eileen, Zi Heng

after that i go along with bra's plan to ditch the bitch ' black horse'
i dun wanna insult the horese(which i love) but her name sounded like it..
and stayed in the library until cca time ends..
lovey dovey wth dar as usual... ^^

after that be and dar and of cos bra went to take a bus home..
the bus was too crowded.. and dar got really frustrated..
that face is just scary >.

OK today's
mood: nothing amazing
weather: dark dark sky.. i like it!

morning nothing much at all...

all day long is just being hungry and gloomy( because i am hungry..)

assembly is about the stepping up of the 10th student council and the downs of the 9th
the 9th performed a dance which sucked like hell..
they dress like shit also. only the president and the black guy look nice..

chem lesson was relaxing... got my test paper.. like omg!

went home by bus.. did the usual with dar...^^

thats all..

chaos!

2009-04-06T15:10:00.000+08:00

kyo no kishoku: nothing too upsetting . never get to be enthu either...
kyo no tenki: rainy...

in the morning before coming to school. i waited for bra at the bus stop near our house as usual.
but the unusual thing is.. she was totally quiet! she never say a single word on through out the whole journey!than we finally get to school but she's still not saying anything. so i start thinking about reasons why she's acting this way. that i suddenly have this feeling that maybe she's angry at me!
dar dar finally came and see was as shock as me about bra's behavior...
there is simply nothing i can do. so i left her alone..
dar dar got angry for awhile because i called piggo along for the sentosa trip.. but was of cos resolved very quickly.

we than we to the parade square for the morning assembly.after that than i understand that bra was actually sick! that's why she's acting this way.

just before recess.. bra finally can't stand it anymore and decided to go home.
so i brought her to the general office.
but unfortunately there is no one that she can call to bring her home.. so she have to stay in the sick bay until the school ends.
i wanted to stay there to accompany her until the recess is over.. but the stupid bitch in the office just won't let me.so i went back to class...

i had the day in a boring and simple note.. nothing special...

than when it comes to mt class. at least THIS is much more interesting..
because it one of the few lessons that i have with dar dar...
our time together are as lovey dovey as ever.

we than go for lunch after that.someone being extra came along as well. we finish up lunch quickly than went to the library(since it's raining too heavily). than that someone come to extra again.. he finally get lost so that how i finally can pose this thing.

so thats all for now. chaos

2009-04-05T21:52:00.000+08:00

kyo no kishoku: lonely...
kyo no tenki: rainy...as dark as my heart...

nothing much really happen today
woke up. eat laksa for breakfast..
missed dar dar like siao..
thats all basically...

tomorrow wil be a better day!

chaos!

2009-04-04T18:05:00.000+08:00

kyo no kishoku: confused...but still happy^^
kyo no tenki: rainy and very cloudy

in the morning nothing really happen. just ate a bowl of super nice laksa...

later in the afternoon i went to the csc to play game with bra and vincent and afew other no important ppl.. we played cs for awhile before dar dar comes. than he was abit angry because we started w/o him.but was later neutralised.
he help me play a few games. i totally suck at it.
than after that we play left 4 dead. it super cool! so gore! and so much to shoot...

after that i went to eat kfc. shared abit of dar dar's food...
he than send me home taking the bus 173.
did our usual...as usual....

than he walk me to the bottom of my hdb block and....
MY MUM WHO IS NOT SUPPOSE TO KNOW ABOUT HIM AND ME SAW US TOGETHER!
but i lied to my mum to cover it up...
but i an tell she's still suspicious

but oh well.. if she find out . i'll just tell her the truth.
and if she make me breakup with him.i just say yes than go jump down a building... simple...

that's all for now. adiós!

2009-04-03T16:35:00.000+08:00

kyo no kishoku: was normal in the morning. moody at noon but happy in the afternoon
kyo no tenki:really warm in the morning. but started raining in the afternoon

first lesson in the morning was a boring one.our f&n teachers are not around of er had a 'bo cheng hu' 2hours in the comp lab.i just slack and do a little of my f&n planning. and tickle dar dar as usual.
second lesson, maths nothing much really but mr koo's expression in really weird. always so 'monotone'.
3rd lesson , ny english teacher mrs anba is not here so we went to the library but was later call back to our class to join mr fazlin's
than that was the end.of the learning phrase.

during the last lesson
dar dar got angry because of something i say me T.T.
Dar dar i sm sorry!for hurting you again...
eddie told me to draw something for him. but dar dar was super against it. but i said to eddie' just hack care him,I'll help you draw'
so that's how he get angry.
but than later during lunch he forgive me...( wah heng ah! or i could have cried...)

we went back to class after that. and have our lovey dovey time together again. jolin and fat.hi.ah said it was disgusting. but who care! i am just that close and so much in love with him you got a problem?!and most likely they are just jealous..

than after that we went to the library having the intention to use the computer. but unfortunately... they comps there all doesn't work. so we went to the computer lab instead.the teacher inchanrge was bra's auntie so it's kinda easy to help us get in i guess...than dar dar was somewhat irritating but sweet. keep making me say ' i love you' to him but i am just too shy so i type it as a message...

that after the cca time. we accompany bra to the library to return books. than i brought the most diguting takoyaki ever~! it taste like rubber. smel like it to. and have tis cockroach smell that make me almost puke..

took bus 66 bra abandon me and sit at the front... but not a bad thing either..
me and dar dar did the usual..

than in the evening i got socld by azril about my previous post. but later he finaly knows of his mistakes and apologized. and of cos i accept it. he knows what wrong that is enough le..

ok so thats for today. mata ashite ne!

2009-04-02T19:09:00.000+08:00

kyo no kishoku: super happy ... even tol headache almost killed me..
kyo no tenki :sunny in the morning but start to rain in the afternoon.

i was almost late again this morning... i was way too sleepy and over slept..
nothing much really happen in school. it's just so boring...
oh ya!
My dearest friend barkat aka bra was absent to day. i miss her! but of cos she'll be coming back the next day.she just wanna slack for one day...lame idea huh?
even the class piggo jonathan lin misses her.oh well bra is piggo's self procliamed second wife afterall. and my friends and i notice something about one of our companions.

he used to demand us to wait for him during recess. and so we did because hi is our friend he'll even get angry if we dun.but everytime when we are relisted later than he is. he will never ever wait for us! so what's his problem!
you want people to wait for you than do the same for us yo! what are we?! you dogs?!
than after school... me , dar dar ,piggo and vicknays was having lunch than he suddeny come and say to vicknays and piggo ' eh dun be light bulb la!' like what lor!
people got girl/boyfriend cannot have frens is it?! sout man!

had a super omg headache but i fine already dun worry^^
than after that we went to the library.i did my maths homework and read manga as usual. me , dar dar and piggo went to 'buy' books from there.how nice got free books...
than he start this ' pong ' thingy that made us laugh like mad.

me and dar dar as usual have our lovey dovey moments again^^(we are just that close, you got an opinion?!)
and since piggo is most likly gonna see this blog. i'll have to leave out the things we did on the bus.

ok thats all for today ...chaos!

2009-04-01T16:44:00.000+08:00

This is a poem i wrote from my dearest. it's copy righted so dun anyone dare copy it!

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing. Watch you smile while you are sleeping. Far away and dreaming. .I could spend my life in this sweet surrender. I could stay lost in this moment forever. Well, every moment spent with you, Is a moment I treasure.

2009-04-01T15:36:00.000+08:00

kyo no kishoku: Grumpy....

the weather's super humid today and the sun's pretty bright on the way home from school. so to me the weather just suck. there is not a minutes which i am not sweating.

had NAFA test(nabe ass fucking aho test). make my whole body ache like hell.
i am sure to flunk it. i dun need to go NS so it's doesn't matter!

i continued sexually harassing bra. and i notice her breast is getting bigger and bigger!omg!
and is she getting fatter?

during assembly there's this akapello group from NS it's nice but, I've seen better... and i dunno what's some people's problem lo. they dun like it but dun insult them mah! as if you can sing better than them lor!

than after that. the school give out the badges for the class committees.Dar Dar was call to go on stage to get it instead of the stupid chairman because his not there. talking about the chairman Vick. he's totally irresponsible lor! make the vice cahirman( my dar dar) do all the work.but since dar dar's name was the one called as the chairman. i guess his the chairman now.

when dar dar was taking the stupid thing from the principle. he look so sian but almost cute. like wanna fight with the principle. lol

Me and dar dar did our 'usual' thing in the bus^^.
he keep asking me who i'll marry but i never say. but later he sms and asked me again.but i told him it's hitsugaya toushiro. and i think he cried T.T ! i am sorry dar dar! i didn't mean to hurt you. it was just my lameness! forgive me!

mostly that's all for today. tommorow i'll write again.. bye bye. mata ashita

2009-03-31T19:35:00.000+08:00

Today's mood: sleepy all day long ,but still very happy...
WOw first time ever i even bother to have a blog...

today my maths teacher changed.. from mdm chang to mr khoo.
hiaz so gonna miss that big fat ass...er i mean great teacher...

i call barkat bra ( almost shouting out loud) infront of a few of my friends and than her expression was like 'O.O' lol damn funny de lor
than later i smacked her breast so she ended up having a cat fight with me.. hiaz...her smack still hurt...

me and Dar Dar's stil the same nothing different..
but for our short 1 month and 11 day relationship.. things are going pretty well ne^^

other than all this nothing much have happen... so thats all bye bye.

New blog!

2009-03-31T08:42:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!